It’s like, everything really is two ways, the way we all pretend it is and the way it really is — Jeff Lindsay

For the first time I could remember, I felt weak, woozy and stupid— like a human-being. Like a very small and helpless human-being.

But what could I do? Be stupid for a while? I wasn't sure I knew how, even after so many years of careful observation.

I did not like this feeling of having feelings.