But what could I do? Be stupid for a while? I wasn't sure I knew how, even after so many years of careful… — Jeff Lindsay

For the first time I could remember, I felt weak, woozy and stupid— like a human-being. Like a very small and helpless human-being.

I did not like this feeling of having feelings.

And what did you do last night, Dexter? Oh, I played with my dolls while a friend chopped up my sister.