# The Trouble With Being Born - Author: [Emil Cioran](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran.md) - Quotes: 112 - Book page: https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born ## Quotes > Only one thing matters: learning to be the loser. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/only-one-thing.md) > Obviously God was a solution, and obviously none so satisfactory that will ever be found again. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/obviously-god-was.md) > To have failed in everything, always, out of a love of discouragement. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/to-have-failed.md) > We must suffer to the end, to the moment when we stop believing in suffering. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-must-suffer.md) > My mission is to suffer for all those who suffer without knowing it. I must pay for them, expiate their unconsciousness, their luck to be ignorant of how unhappy they are. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/my-mission-is-to-suffer.md) > Erosion of our being by our infirmities: the resulting void is filled by the presence of consciousness, what am I saying? — that void is consciousness itself. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/erosion-of-our.md) > God is what survives the evidence that nothing deserves to be thought. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/god-is-what.md) > The unfortunate thing about public misfortunes is that everyone regards himself as qualified to talk about them. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-unfortunate-thing.md) > Existence would be a quite impracticable enterprise if we stopped granting importance to what has none. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/existence-would-be-a-quite.md) > To think that so many have succeeded in dying! [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/to-think-that.md) > If instead of expanding you, putting you in a state of energetic euphoria, your ordeals depress and embitter you, you can be sure you have no spiritual vocation. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/if-instead-of-expanding.md) > There is no false sensation. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/there-is-no-false.md) > Say what we will, death is the best thing nature has found to please everyone. With each of us, everything vanishes, everything stops forever. What an advantage, what an abuse! Without the least effort on our part, we own the universe, we drag it into our own disappearance. No doubt about it, dying is immoral... [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/say-what-we-will.md) > Self-knowledge — the bitterest knowledge of all and also the kind we cultivate least: what is the use of catching ourselves out, morning to night, in the act of illusion, pitilessly tracing each act back to its root, and losing case after case before our own tribunal? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/self-knowledge-the-bitterest.md) > "What do you do from morning to night?" "I endure myself." [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/what-do-you.md) > In relation to any act of life, the mind acts as a killjoy. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/in-relation-to-any.md) > What are you waiting for in order to give up? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/what-are-you.md) > The poor, by thinking unceasingly of money, reach the point of losing the spiritual advantages of non-possession, thereby sinking as low as the rich. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-poor-by-thinking.md) > I do nothing, granted. But I see the hours pass — which is better than trying to fill them. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-do-nothing.md) > Each of us believes, quite unconsciously of course, that we alone pursue the truth, which the rest are incapable of seeking out and unworthy of attaining. This madness is so deep-rooted and so useful that it is impossible to realize what would become of each of us if it were someday to disappear. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/each-of-us-believes.md) > I pride myself on my capacity to perceive the transitory character of everything. An odd gift which has spoiled all my joys; better: all my sensations. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-pride-myself.md) > Once we begin to want, we fall under the jurisdiction of the Devil. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/once-we-begin.md) > Self-pity is not as sterile as we suppose. Once we feel its mere onset, we assume a thinker's attitude, and come to think of it, we come to think! [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/self-pity-is-not.md) > Without the faculty of forgetting, our past would weigh so heavily on our present that we should not have the strength to confront another moment, still less to live through it. Life would be bearable only to frivolous natures, those in fact who do not remember. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/without-the-faculty.md) > If death is as horrible as is claimed, how is it that after the passage of a certain period of time we consider happy any being, friend or enemy, who has ceased to live? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/if-death-is-as-horrible.md) > We have lost, being born, as much as we shall lose, dying. Everything. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-have-lost.md) > Buddhism calls anger "corruption of the mind," Manicheism "root of the tree of death." I know this, but what good does it do me to know? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/buddhism-calls-anger.md) > The only thing the young should be taught is that there is virtually nothing to be hoped for from life. One dreams of a Catalogue of Disappointments which would include all the disillusionments reserved for each and every one of us, to be posted in the schools. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-only-thing.md) > Every thought derives from a thwarted sensation. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/every-thought-derives.md) > If we could sleep twenty-four hours a day, we would soon return to the primordial slime, the beatitude of that perfect torpor before Genesis-the dream of every consciousness sick of itself. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/if-we-could.md) > There is nothing to say about anything. So there can be no limit to the number of books. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/there-is-nothing.md) > The mind that puts everything in question, reaches, after a thousand interrogations, an almost total inertia, a situation which the inert, in fact, knows from the start, by instinct. For what is inertia but a congenital perplexity? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-mind-that.md) > When I happen to be busy, I never give a moment's thought to the "meaning" of anything, particularly of whatever it is I am doing. A proof that the secret of everything is in action and not abstention, that fatal cause of consciousness. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/when-i-happen.md) > As art sinks into paralysis, artists multiply. This anomaly ceases to be one if we realize that art, on its way to exhaustion, has become both impossible and easy. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/as-art-sinks.md) > No position is so false as having understood and still remaining alive. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/no-position-is-so-false.md) > We say: he has no talent, only tone. But tone is precisely what cannot be invented — we're born with it. Tone is an inherited grace, the privilege some of us have of making our organic pulsations felt — tone is more than talent, it is its essence. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-say-he-has.md) > One cannot live without motives. I have no motives left, and I am living. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/one-cannot-live.md) > We have convictions only if we have studied nothing thoroughly. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-have-convictions.md) > The more you are a victim of contradictory impulses, the less you know which to yield to. To lack character — precisely that and nothing more. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-more-you.md) > It is a great force, and a great fortune, to be able to live without any ambition whatever. I aspire to it, but the very fact of so aspiring still participates in ambition. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/it-is-a-great.md) > The farther men get from God, the farther they advance into the knowledge of religions. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-farther-men.md) > Nothing is a better proof of how far humanity has regressed than the impossibility of finding a single nation, a single tribe, among whom birth still provokes mourning and lamentations. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/nothing-is-a-better.md) > An aphorism? Fire without flames. Understandable that no one tries to warm himself at it. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/an-aphorism-fire.md) > Where are my sensations? They have melted into... me, and what is this me, this self, but the sum of these evaporated sensations? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/where-are-my-sensations.md) > Late at night. I feel like falling into a frenzy, doing some unprecedented thing to release myself, but I don't see against whom, against what... [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/late-at-night.md) > Fear is the antidote to boredom: the remedy must be stronger than the disease. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/fear-is-the.md) > We make choices, decisions, as long as we keep to the surface of things; once we reach the depths, we can neither choose nor decide, we can do nothing but regret the surface... [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-make-choices.md) > The ideal being? An angel ravaged by humor. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-ideal-being.md) > Progress is the injustice each generation commits with regard to its predecessor. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/progress-is-the.md) > This very second has vanished forever, lost in the anonymous mass of the irrevocable. It will never return. I suffer from this and I do not. Everything is unique — and insignificant. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/this-very-second.md) > Imaginary pains are by far the most real we suffer, since we feel a constant need for them and invent them because there is no way of doing without them. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/imaginary-pains-are.md) > All my life, I have lived with the feeling that I have been kept from my true place. If the expression "metaphysical exile" had no meaning, my existence alone would afford it one. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/all-my-life.md) > "Do I look like someone who has something to do here on Earth?" — That's what I'd like to answer the busybodies who inquire into my activities. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/do-i-look.md) > Paradise was unendurable, otherwise the first man would have adapted to it; this world is no less so, since here we regret paradise or anticipate another one. What to do? Where to go? Do nothing and go nowhere, easy enough. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/paradise-was-unendurable.md) > It is trifling to believe in what you do or in what others do. You should avoid simulacra and even "realities"; you should take up a position external to everything and everyone, drive off or grind down your appetites, live, according to a Hindu adage, with as few desires as a "solitary elephant. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/it-is-trifling.md) > Not to be born is undoubtedly the best plan of all. Unfortunately, it is within no one's reach. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/not-to-be-born.md) > When you know quite absolutely that everything is unreal, you then cannot see why you should take the trouble to prove it. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/when-you-know.md) > Consciousness is much more than the thorn, it is the dagger in the flesh. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/consciousness-is-much.md) > The feeling of being ten thousand years behind, or ahead, of the others, of belonging to the beginnings or to the end of humanity... [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-feeling-of-being.md) > Nothing deserves to be undone, doubtless because nothing deserved to be done. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/nothing-deserves-to-be-undone.md) > We had nothing to say to one another, and while I was manufacturing my phrases I felt that earth was falling through space and that I was falling with it at a speed that made me dizzy. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-had-nothing.md) > It's not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/its-not-worth.md) > Everything turns on pain; the rest is accessory, even nonexistent, for we remember only what hurts. Painful sensations being the only real ones, it is virtually useless to experience others. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/everything-turns-on-pain.md) > The need for novelty is the characteristic of an alienated gorilla. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-need-for.md) > In the fact of being born there is such an absence of necessity that when you think about it a little more than usual, you are left...with a foolish grin. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/in-the-fact-of.md) > I have all the defects of other people yet everything they do seems to me inconceivable. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-have-all.md) > The more you live, the less useful it seems to have lived. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-more-you-live.md) > Two enemies — the same man divided. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/two-enemies-the.md) > We dread the future only when we are not sure we can kill ourselves when we want to. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-dread-the.md) > We do not rush toward death, we flee the catastrophe of birth, survivors struggling to forget it. Fear of death is merely the projection into the future of a fear which dates back to our first moment of life. We are reluctant, of course, to treat birth as a scourge: has it not been inculcated as the sovereign good — have we not been told that the worst came at the end, not at the outset of our lives? Yet evil, the real evil, is behind, not ahead of us. What escaped Jesus did not escape Buddha: "If three things did not exist in the world, O disciples, the Perfect One would not appear in the world. …" And ahead of old age and death he places the fact of birth, source of every infirmity, every disaster. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/we-do-not.md) > "What's wrong — what's the matter with you?" Nothing, nothing's the matter, I've merely taken a leap outside my fate, and now I don't know where to turn, what to run for... [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/whats-wrong-whats.md) > I used to ask myself, over a coffin: “What good did it do the occupant to be born?,” I now put the same question about anyone alive. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-used-to-ask.md) > He detested objective truths, the burden of argument, sustained reasoning. He disliked demonstrating, he wanted to convince no one. Others are a dialectician's invention. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/he-detested-objective.md) > Each time I fail to think about death, I have the impression of cheating, of deceiving someone in me. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/each-time-i-fail.md) > What is that one crucifixion compared to the daily kind any insomniac endures? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/what-is-that.md) > What I know at sixty, I knew as well at twenty. Forty years of a long, a superfluous, labor of verification. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/what-i-know.md) > Three in the morning. I realize this second, then this one, then the next: I draw up the balance sheet for each minute. And why all this? Because I was born. It is a special type of sleeplessness that produces the indictment of birth. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/three-in-the.md) > I get along quite well with someone only when he is at his lowest point and has neither the desire nor the strength to restore his habitual illusions. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-get-along.md) > It has been a long time since philosophers have read men's souls. It is not their task, we are told. Perhaps. But we must not be surprised if they no longer matter much to us. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/it-has-been.md) > I react like everyone else, even like those I most despise; but I make up for it by deploring every action I commit, good or bad. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-react-like.md) > If death had only negative aspects, dying would be an unmanageable action. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/if-death-had.md) > I am for the most part so convinced that everything is lacking in basis, consequence, justification, that if someone dared to contradict me, even the man I most admire, he would seem to me a charlatan or a fool. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-am-for.md) > The same feeling of not belonging, of futility, wherever I go: I pretend interest in what matters nothing to me, I bestir myself mechanically or out of charity, without ever being caught up, without ever being somewhere. What attracts me is elsewhere, and I don't know where that elsewhere is. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-same-feeling.md) > Though we may prefer ourselves to the universe, we nonetheless loathe ourselves much more than we suspect. If the wise man is so rare a phenomenon, it is because he seems unshaken by the aversion which, like all beings, he must feel for himself. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/though-we-may.md) > Everything exists; nothing exists. Either formula affords a like serenity. The man of anxiety, to his misfortune, remains between them, trembling and perplexed, forever at the mercy of a nuance, incapable of gaining a foothold in the security of being or in the absence of being. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/everything-exists-nothing.md) > Not one moment when I have not been conscious of being outside Paradise. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/not-one-moment.md) > There was a time when time did not yet exist. ... The rejection of birth is nothing but the nostalgia for this time before time. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/there-was-a-time.md) > At this very moment, I am suffering — as we say in French, j'ai mal. This event, crucial for me, is nonexistent, even inconceivable for anyone else, for everyone else. Except for God, if that word can have a meaning. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/at-this-very.md) > I think of so many people who are no more, and I pity them. Yet they are not so much to be pitied, for they have solved every problem, beginning with the problem of death. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-think-of-so-many.md) > For a long time — always, in fact — I have known that life here on earth is not what I needed and that I wasn't able to deal with it; for this reason and for this reason alone, I have acquired a touch of spiritual pride, so that my existence seems to me the degradation and the erosion of a psalm. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/for-a-long.md) > To get up in the morning, wash and then wait for some unforeseen variety of dread or depression. I would give the whole universe and all of Shakespeare for a grain of ataraxy. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/to-get-up-in-the.md) > When we are young, we take a certain pleasure in our infirmities. They seem so new, so rich! With age, they no longer surprise us, we know them too well. Now, without anything unexpected in them, they do not deserve to be endured. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/when-we-are.md) > Better to be an animal than a man, an insect than an animal, a plant than an insect, and so on. Salvation? Whatever diminishes the kingdom of consciousness and compromises its supremacy. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/better-to-be-an-animal.md) > When people come to me saying they want to kill themselves, I tell them, "What's your rush? You can kill yourself any time you like. So calm down. Suicide is a positive act." And they do calm down. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/when-people-come.md) > For a long while I have lived with the notion that I was the most normal being that ever existed. This notion gave me the taste, even the passion for being unproductive: what was the use of being prized in a world inhabited by madmen, a world mired in mania and stupidity? For whom was one to bother, and to what end? It remains to be seen if I have quite freed myself from this certitude, salvation in the absolute, ruin in the immediate. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/for-a-long-while.md) > I have never taken myself for a being. A non-citizen, a marginal type, a nothing who exists only by the excess, by the superabundance of his nothingness. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-have-never.md) > Having destroyed all my connections, burned my bridges, I should feel a certain freedom, and in fact I do. One so intense I am afraid to rejoice in it. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/having-destroyed-all.md) > Having always lived in fear of being surprised by the worst, I have tried in every circumstance to get a head start, flinging myself into misfortune long before it occurred. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/having-always-lived.md) > Even in childhood I watched the hours flow, independent of any reference, any action, any event, the disjunction of time from what was not itself, its autonomous existence, its special status, its empire, its tyranny. I remember quite clearly that afternoon when, for the first time, confronting the empty universe, I was no more than a passage of moments reluctant to go on playing their proper parts. Time was coming unstuck from being — at my expense. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/even-in-childhood.md) > My faculty for disappointment surpasses understanding. It is what lets me comprehend Buddha, but also what keeps me from following him. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/my-faculty-for.md) > In the fact of being born there is such an absence of necessity that when you think about it a little more than usual, you are left—ignorant how to react—with a foolish grin [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/in-the-fact.md) > To have committed every crime but that of being a father. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/to-have-committed.md) > The first thinker was, without a doubt, the first man obsessed by why. An unaccustomed mania, not at all contagious: rare indeed are those who suffer from it, who are a prey to questioning, and who can accept no given because they were born in consternation. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-first-thinker.md) > To claim you are more detached, more alien to everything than anyone, and to be merely a fanatic of indifference! [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/to-claim-you.md) > The real, the unique misfortune: to see the light of day. A disaster which dates back to aggressiveness, to the seed of expansion and rage within origins, to the tendency to the worst which first shook them up. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/the-real-the.md) > I long to be free — desperately free. Free as the stillborn are free. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-long-to-be-free.md) > Once we reject lyricism, to blacken a page becomes an ordeal: what's the use of writing in order to say exactly what we had to say? [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/once-we-reject.md) > I do not forgive myself for being born. It is as if, creeping into this world, I had profaned a mystery, betrayed some momentous pledge, committed a fault of nameless gravity. Yet in a less assured mood, birth seems a calamity I would be miserable not having known. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-do-not.md) > I know that my birth is fortuitous, a laughable accident, and yet, as soon as I forget myself, I behave as if it were a capital event, indispensable to the progress and equilibrium of the world. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-know-that.md) > I am enraptured by Hindu philosophy, whose essential endeavor is to surmount the self; and everything I do, everything I think is only myself and the selfs humiliations. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-am-enraptured.md) > As the years pass, the number of those we can communicate with diminishes. When there is no longer anyone to talk to, at last we will be as we were before stooping to a name. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/as-the-years.md) > I was walking late one night along a tree-lined path; a chestnut fell at my feet. The noise it made as it burst, the resonance it provoked in me, and an upheaval out of all proportion to this insignificant event thrust me into miracle, into the rapture of the definitive, as if there were no more questions — only answers. I was drunk on a thousand unexpected discoveries, none of which I could make use of. This is how I nearly reached the Supreme. But instead I went on with my walk. [Quote page](https://www.leafyquotes.com/emil-cioran/the-trouble-with-being-born/i-was-walking.md)